Interview: "The
Heartbreak Kid" Shawn Michaels
conducted by
Tim Quinn for
In
His Grip (official on-line newsletter
of Ted DiBiase), July, 2002
(Published with
permission from Tim Quinn)
You said that HBK dead. Then you came back to Raw as
HBK. People said you contradicted yourself and criticized you for that.
Care to set the record straight?
Well I think that what I meant... I suppose I have to be
careful cause I’m sure a lot of people who read Teddy’s sight
are wrestling fans and wrestling friends are pretty literal folks when
you answer something... I mostly meant that in that business I had turned
into that character, almost. Not almost, I mean as much as you can without
going completely crazy. But I had turned into my character and I had lost
touch of who I was as a person. So when I made that remark, I meant that,
for me coming back into the business - because I had been born again and
I did feel reborn, the person that I was born to be - the person in Jesus
Christ I was meant to be when God knew me before I was born - I just meant
that the person who built this reputation in the wrestling industry, the
person who was known for being difficult behind the scene was no longer
alive. And that I was going to portray Shawn Hickenbottom in the ring,
out of the ring, and all other times and not really rely on that character
so to speak.
You were brutally attacked on Raw when someone put your
head into a car window. Some people thought it was a shoot and you were
really hurt...
Well no, of course not, I’m really fine. It was just
a wrestling angle.
There have been rumors that you will return to the ring,
not return to the ring, head for the announcers table, etc. Now it appears
you are heading for a feud with Triple H. What is the future for Shawn
Michaels?
Well, the day after Kevin Nash got hurt, I was on a plane
and in a very deep prayer session with the Lord. And all of a sudden this
idea popped into my head. And I wasn’t really sure... When I’m
praying thoughts don’t normally pop into my head like that. It was
an idea for a storyline and it was about me and Vince, and me ending up
wrestling Vince on a PPV. And I thought well geez, I’ve been out
of the business now for a number of years and just getting back and this
must just be the wrestling business getting a hold of me. So I looked
up something in my bible and it took me to Joshua. And the beginning of
Joshua, talks about how Moses has just died and Joshua is embarking upon
having to take the children of Israel to the Promised Land, and him being
very scared and concerned about living up to what Moses had done in the
past. But the Lord told him "be strong and courageous, I’m
with you." Well I thought to myself, maybe He wants me to get back
into the ring for what ever reason. I wasn’t sure if it was the
Lord giving me this idea or if it was my flesh... So I just prayed about
it all week and when I told my wife about it she had peace with it right
away. And, any other time having to do with the wrestling business she
never had peace - as far as me getting into the ring - she hasn’t
been comfortable with it. So we prayed about it for about a week and eventually
I just mentioned the idea to Vince. And he then thought about it for a
week and then he got back to me and said "I like it but I don’t
want it to be me, I want it to be Hunter". So we went with this other
story line and the end result is yeah, there is a good possibility I’m
going to get in the ring. But it has nothing to do with me personally.
I feel, to me, this getting in the ring is a testimony to God. Because
in four years I haven’t felt confidence, I felt like I lost it,
I don’t think my body can handle it, but in this process I feel
very confident that He’s going to take care of me in this match.
So that’s the only reason I’m doing it. I don’t know,
I have no idea what His will is, obviously. But, I believe that this is
a message that He sent me, that He wanted me to do it for whatever reason.
So I’m going to do it, and I’m going to be confident in doing
it. And I’m as excited as everybody else to see what happens.
So, basically are you thinking just the one match or
is that up to the Lord....?
Oh, absolutely - no farther than that, that’s the
one thing - as I said the only reason I’m thinking about that is
because He gave it to me. And there’s absolutely no indication that
He wants anymore than that and I’m not doing anything in my life
if I don’t feel it’s what God wants me doing.
Personally, we don’t watch the WWE here...
Neither do I.
Last week, you were seen in the ring with Hunter where
you did the DX symbol, or the "crotch chop" you looked very
uncomfortable...
Yeah. I didn’t actually do the "crotch chop".
I went to my waist and I was very uncomfortable because I told them I
wasn’t going to do that. But I did make the "X" sign,
I did do that but I didn’t do what we used to do. I made it a point
not to do that because I am uncomfortable doing that.
You seemed even out of place in a sense...
As I said, I made sure to make an "X" across my
waist but I knew that people could still look at it and go "Oh look
he’s doing it, he’s doing it!" So that in and of itself
makes me a little uncomfortable - know how people perceive things. I know
that though no fault of anyone that people are looking for an excuse,
or something to call me a hypocrite about and that’s fine, but...
It was, it was uncomfortable and that’s why I didn’t do it.
What is your opinion of the current state of wrestling
- today’s product?
I think, with the exception of the last two weeks - the
last two weeks they are writing the show differently, I have expressed
my feelings on what they did in the last four years: I don’t care
for it. But the last two weeks have been more wrestling based and I think
that it’s going to go back to that. I think it’s going to
go back to a show that people say "yeah, me and my kids watch that",
gonna back to more wrestling. Now obviously it’s still going to
be violent because that’s what wrestling is: simulated violence.
But that was a lot easier to explain to your children, as opposed to the
women barely dressed and the language and everything else. Will those
things change? I don’t know. I don’t take part in them: I
don’t use vulgarity in the show, now: I surely don’t curse
and I don’t do anything with the women. I’m certainly doing
what I can, and I think the last two weeks the show has been more wrestling
based, so hopefully that’s a sign of things to come. We also, we
don’t watch it in my home. My wife does her best to flip through
and see if I’m on, just to show her son his daddy on TV; but he’s
seen it now, seen daddy on TV. So we don’t need to, he don’t
need to see the show because there is just too many things that he can
see that we don’t want him to see. So we don’t watch it either,
by the same token, we don’t watch a lot of stuff on TV.
One of the reasons many people, Christians in particular,
quit watching the WWF/WWE is because Vince, or the writers of the show,
seemed to mock Christ and the Christian beliefs quite a bit - such as
crucifying Austin. How does Vince feel about your conversion?
I think that they do that not knowing that they are doing
it. As I think back I realize the immense lack of knowledge in the Word
of God. And so, to them it’s like "Oooo, let’s put Austin
on, we’ll call it a symbol so that way it won’t be too blasphemous"
but at the same time they see it as more like as you would see it in a
movie like "ahhhh" - more just to be effective, an effect of
it being a cross as opposed to understanding that no that’s actually
really serious. But that’s because no one there has a real knowledge
of the Word of God, and I have to be honest - until I was saved, I had
no idea either. And there are times when Vince explains things - the first
time I was back he was explaining something to me and he was using the
Lord’s name in vain and I told him to stop. And he immediately apologized
for it he said he was sorry, but you just get so used to doing it - well
we need to stop doing it. Vince has changed a great deal over the years
and I don’t know how he deals with everybody else, I can only speak
to how he deals with me. And he’s very respectful to me and my faith.
And I think that there are a lot of guys, like Teddy for instance, who
are worried, I think, about me, because of how Vince handled Jake Roberts.
Well, I’m not, and I told them, I’m not Jake Roberts. There’s
some things that guys will put up with because they’re intimidated
by Vince McMahon. And, Vince and I got over that a long time ago before
I was saved I wasn’t intimidated by Vince McMahon because I done,
shared and said too much to the man to be intimidated by him. And I don’t
mean that to sound cocky, it’s just that I’ve been there for
a long time and he and I have been through a lot of experiences. We’re
just two guys that talk. He’s not really "Vince McMahon"
when we’re talking, he’s just a guy talking to me. 95% of
what we talk about is personal, it has very little to do with business,
and most guys never formed that relationship with him. It was always just
business and talking about their there job. So when you do that with him
he always had to take on the role as "the boss". So, with me
he doesn’t feel the need to be "the boss" all the time.
So anyway, I guess what I’m getting at is he’s very respectful
of it but as I said, since I’ve been back, they don’t really
understand a lot of what they’re doing. I mean as far as mocking
the Christians, I don’t think they understand the severity of it
because to them, every once in a while, them Christians look like a wacky
bunch. And, I don’t mean that... again, I’m thrilled to be
a part of that wacky bunch.
At least we know where we are going....
Exactly! And I guess that’s what I’m saying:
we understand the severity now, at least I do, of "Hey, you don’t
get it, you’re going to hell!".... To them it’s just,
it’s a place that doesn’t exist, so that reality just doesn’t
- they’re in a constant state of unreality because they are working
all the time in that business. So they never get a chance to step out
and understand that "Hey, what about when all these is over...?"
.
Moving away from the WWE for a minute: your relationship
with your former Midnight Rockers partner Marty Jannetty has been report
as rocky in the past - do you have any hopes of a true friendship with
him in the future?
Yea, I don’t know that it was, I don’t know
how "rocky" it was - I mean Marty and I were young and just
naive and stupid, really. Marty and I talked a couple of years ago and
everything seemed to be fine. And so yeah, I would love to see Marty and
talk with him... I mean we have obviously drifted apart; we live very
different lives now. But if I saw him I would definitely, or even knew
how to get in touch with him I would love to speak Marty and see how he’s
doing. I certainly have nothing negative in my life or in my heart about
Marty at all.
Five names - what is the first thing that pops into your
head:
Ok.
Kevin Nash: friend
Scott Hall: friend
Brett Hart: angry
Hulk Hogan: legend
Vince McMahon: big heart - that nobody ever gets to see...
Ted DiBiase: Christian brother
You are close to Kevin Nash - have you had a chance to
share Jesus with him, or anybody backstage for that matter?
Yeah, I actually have. Kevin was the first guy, he saw me
- he walked right up to me and said "Man, you came up out of that
water a different man". He could see the Spirit shinning out of me
and that really opened him up to let me in on some things in his life
that I didn’t know about. Kevin had been saved years ago in college,
and he’s read the New Testament... He’s got some knowledge
there it’s just the business and everything else and the enemy working
on him. So he was really showing some interest because, he felt God’s
strength through me that he could use to get his life back on track and
patch up his relationship with his wife and get his family back together;
and he was well on his way to doing that... And I think that Tully Blanchard
put a great vision together for me - it was Kevin, in the spirit world
running towards the cross and the enemy just clipping him in the legs.
I think that’s what happened because Kevin was making some great
strides and, really, he still - even though the enemy tried to knock him
down and take him out of the business and get him upset and down on himself.
He has vowed to come out of that injury, still positive and working to
get the relationship with his wife back together. And I’m gonna
stay with it and help him as best I can... But he was definitely showing
some interest and we would be up late after every TV show in my room just
talking and, he would share some real personal experiences that I just
never knew... Even as close as we were before he never shared because
I wasn’t at a place where I could be of any help to him at that
time. There’s a very spiritual side of Kevin that nobody knows about
because in our industry it’s not something that people open up about.
And that’s the one thing that could benefit a lot
if guys: Hogan came up to me and told me that he was saved when he was
14; and some other guys - Big Show and I rode together the other day and
he said seeing me, the way that I am with my family, and the way I am
with my faith values made him question his relationship with God. It has
been an affect in the dressing room and as I say, I haven’t done
anything. It says in the bible the strongest witness is a silent witness
that just lives his life by the Word of God and set an example.
God is doing all of it. I stay in the word everyday and
I pray a lot before I go to work and so I feel very good when I go to
work and strong, and there’s some other guys who were Christians
before, but sort of like closet Christians... Eddie Guerrero and Chris
Jericho, But now with me there, I’ve been sort of a staple in that
company for a long time and I’m somebody who’s a little more
outgoing that we openly talk about it now. So that it’s something
that can be openly talked about in the dressing room around the guys,
and the guys can take part of it or not. A lot of guys don’t talk
about it for whatever reason, I think a lot of it has to do with, the
business can be very intimidating. Not that we all are subject to anything
that’s not cool, but to a certain extent that’s true: if it’s
something you don’t think that everyone is going to accept then
you sort of don’t talk about it. And me, I’m thrilled about
it, and the thing is now there’s other guys, there’s guys
in there who believe but just don’t want to talk about it but now
it’s a subject that can be talked about..
How did Jesus find you?
Well, the power of a praying wife.
We heard you had quite an experience in Phoenix at the
A.I.M. conference. Like to share?
It was awesome! It was very relaxed and what really helped
me was to be in an environment where there are - it is something that
I just feel that, gosh, every wrestler, every athlete - where you have
a hundred guys, a hundred men: a hundred "he-men", the kind
of men you play sports with, you hang around with, you train with - all
in there not caring about anything except worshipping God. Not feeling
self conscious about it, not worried about as they say - looking cool
or whatever, they’re just in there praising there God. And it moved
me beyond words.
I went through an encounter a couple weeks after I got
saved and I wasn’t sure - I guess I didn’t have the evidence
of the Holy Spirit. And boy at that conference, being in that unbelievably
comfortable atmosphere and really just submitting yourself, totally humbling
yourself before God... It was totally awesome.!
Were do you see Shawn Hickenbottom in the next five years?
I hope and pray that he’s enjoying a wonderful marriage
and enjoying that seven and a half year old son, going to school and raising
him in a good Christian home... And being right in the center of the Lord’s
will for his life and whatever that entails. Right now I’m doing
a thing with fatherless children a mentoring type thing with Cornerstone
Ministry. That was something I thought about actually before I got saved...
It was just one of the things the Lord lead me to in the beginning of
my walk. Just seeing, gosh, one of the things that seems to be wrong -
not knowing that it wasn’t me - but saying that geez, our country
is going down the tubes with men leaving so many women with children to
raise. And then coming to the realization after being saved and reading
that it is our job as men to be the spiritual leaders of our families...
You take the man out and it’s very tough and just how - I don’t
know, I was raised in a family that my mom did everything so you don’t
really realize your role as a man. I read a lot of books that put it in
perspective for me, and I just see that is really missing - men really
copping out. So I hopefully will be doing something with that. After my
birthday, my wife enrolled she and I in a two year bible school at Liberty
University - hopefully, I’ll be done with that. But as I say, it’s
to be loving my family the way God wants me to and be in the center of
His will, that’s what I hope for.
Any chance in the future of helping Ted in the PWA?
Yes, he actually asked me about doing a show, and yeah -
I certainly want to reach people any way possible. He’s asked me
to ask Vince but as I said earlier, Vince has been very supportive of
anything I want to do. So yes, I would love to help Teddy - it’s
merely a scheduling process at this point.
How about you getting together with Ted, Nikita and Sting
to work for Christ?
Yes, we have all sort of talked about that also and if it’s
the Lord’s will, He will make that happen.
Any parting message for Ted?
Yes, thanks. He’s somebody I can talk to and I very
much appreciate him talking to me and getting me through... just helping
me to understand and not be freaked out so to speak about everything that
was going on.
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